i’m eighteen and 열아홉살.
i moved from Kuching, Malaysia to Seoul, South Korea.
i’m starting uni.
i’ve only met new people since i’ve moved.
i am excited yet scared and find everything tiring.
everything is so new to me; the place, the experience.
at times, I just want to have a comfortable meal with someone i know.
i crave comfort so much. but things are fun.
i’ve always felt like an inbetweener but now i’ve felt that i fit in an even narrower slot.
i still have no clue about my future. i just want to be someone great.
i need to take care of myself. firmly.
clothes and dressing excite me more than ever. i think i really do like clothes. it’s really very fun.
i had my first experience of making friends (친구 먹기) with a 1999 friend. strange experience. Korea is definitely strange.
surprisingly, i want to fit in here.
i want to learn more languages. for real.
this year, i want to complain less; be aware of my blessings and i want to be firmer and clearer.
i want to be too busy to face any negative emotions of mine this year. terrible idea but that’s what i want to do.
i feel like it’s the worst way to face a new place and people but i really really want comfort. i want to feel comfortable. fuck “getting out of your comfort zone” bullshit. i want to feel comfortable.
i’m trying to believe i’m stronger than i think i am.
i wish myself good luck for this year. please take good care of me. i need you.